Running and Social Anxiety

If two bloggers meet and we forget to take a photo, did it really happen?

Coco and I had a wonderful catch up over some delicious guacamole and chips on Wednesday evening. When she messaged me realizing we hadn’t taken a photo I said it just meant we needed to see one another again soon.

I’ve talked about my social anxiety here. It’s a challenge, but it’s manageable. I do well in twos and threes, or with a buddy when going into a new place with a larger group. While I have been excited about meeting everyone, I’ve also been a little skittish as the moment approached. New people are scary. I just want to say that I’ve been amazingly lucky to meet four of you within this last month and yeah, it feels like it wasn’t even really “meeting” but rather seeing friends. There were (virtually) no butterflies. Can I just say I love you all, and I hope all of our paths cross soon.

Speaking of people and runners. Did you see Strava’s Why We Run piece?  Nothing earth shattering, but I really like how it was presented.

“Be an ambassador for reading with our new sticker”

I loved this fundraising email from NYPL which said, in part:

Do you remember the first book that made you love reading? Maybe it was something you read as a child, or a gift that you received at exactly the right time.

No matter where, when, or how you came across your first favorite, having even one book that you truly love makes you the best possible ambassador for reading. That’s why we’d like you to be a part of celebrating 125 years of The New York Public Library’s commitment to serving book lovers everywhere.

I don’t really “get” ambassadorships and am generally not the best with social media promotion, but this is one I could will get behind. I am the person after all who bought book dedications as holiday gifts. I read three books while In Bermuda. I was a happy Cari.

I realized in looking at my Athlinks profile for my Half times for the Bermuda recap that I ran three half marathons in 2018, 4 in 2019 and may only have one or two in 2020. I’m going to take some time to train properly for Cherry Blossom and after that I’ll do some thinking about a Half. I really, really love the distance, but I want to do it properly.

Speaking of doing it properly, Cherry Blossom lottery selection comes with Runcoach training, and while I need another app like I need a hole in the head, giving it a go since Runkeeper’s training module keeps getting mad at me because I don’t follow it to the letter.  I am not a very good student at times. I think because for me personally, if running had too many rules I’d rebel against doing it. It’s like books I don’t want to read because they’re assigned.

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Sort of a two-week Weekly Run Down with Kim and Deborah, but there wasn’t a lot of running the first week, and I already talked about the exciting running.

Week of 2/10:

  • Monday: off, tickets to see an Off Broadway show
  • Tuesday: off, worked super late
  • Wednesday: off, travel to Bermuda

 

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  • Thursday: five mile run/walk, mostly walk, exploring Southampton and trying to find flat terrain on which to run. Spoiler: it doesn’t exist.
Still looking for flat terrain. Photo (c) Darlene
I think I can, I think I can. (c) Darlene
  • Friday: a mile and a half shakeout so we wouldn’t have a week off running before the Half marathon. We ended up in the parking lot since the golf course was too hilly
  • Saturday: lighthouse “run”.
Celebrating a Half Marathon. Photo (c) Marcia

Week of 2/17: Deborah’s post came at the perfect time as I thought about my return to running after the hilly Half. This is the first Half my legs didn’t feel trashed after, which was a pleasant surprise.

  • Monday: off, travel home from Bermuda
  • Tuesday: off. Vague gym plans but forgot my exercise bands so did PT at home
  • Wednesday: due to some scheduling, I was able to finally run to PT.  It was nearly a naked run as I got out the door only to realize my Garmin was off (and I can’t remember how to turn it on without plugging it in) and my iPod had offloaded the music app for space. Oops. Luckily I ran with my phone to PT to show him the jumpie and could track the run in Strava. I don’t trust the pace. I haven’t seen that in some time and the GPS was jumpie. but it was a two mile warm up. PT started with a long conversation while he worked on my hip/knee to talk about what the next steps are. It hurts way less than when I started, but I’m not yet pain free. He gave me some hip work to do in the morning to loosen up as that’s my stiffest time. And then when I runfessed to forgetting to plank on the beach and failing a jumpie? He made me pay. Hurts so good. but it helps.
  • Thursday: office run group. We’re sticking with the 3/3.5 ish mile loop for now as we’re not ready for mid-week medium longs. It’s so nice to have it not yet be full dark when we head out.
  • Friday: gym PT. Originally supposed to have my last appointment, but he wants to get in a few more approved visits by going weekly, so we’ll see. I’d hoped to graduate pain free. I don’t think that will happen, but it’s so much better than it was.
Thanks, Shadow, for making me look so tall
haven’t done this run in daylight in a while
the distance was intentional, the time/pace was not. And yes, I actually matched
and in the latest installation of runners not running, Mardi Gras party!
  • Saturday: my shadow and I went out for the first long run of Cherry Blossom training. That route was my summer/fall mid-week medium run and ugh, six miles was hard. Not on the lungs, but on the hip/knee. I stopped a few times to stretch, including this nifty hip semi circle he taught me Wednesday as way to counter morning IT stiffness. I’ve missed the East River run-it’s nice and chill, and flat.  I always love that Triboro marker even though the internet is generally confused on its origin. Here’s a take from Ephemeral New York and A Great Big City. Six seemed to be a good place to re-start training, and we’ll see how it goes.

Never went to a Mardi Gras party before. Not a huge thing here/in my circle, but these friends met in New Orleans and it’s her family tradition and it was such a fun evening. My phone was in my purse/away, so no photos of the amazing jambalaya, etouffee or corn & crab bisque. Trust me, they were delish.

  • Sunday: off. Mani/Pedi. Straighten the apartment. Chill.

Plan for the Week:

  • Monday: morning run before work
  • Tuesday: PT/cross
  • Wednesday: run to PT
  • Thursday: office run group
  • Friday: off/cross/PT
  • Saturday: 7/8 miles
  • Sunday: off

TOTR: 2018 Goals and Bling

I really love Tuesdays on the Run in general, and the look back at 2018 medals in particular. I was sad to miss it, so combining it with this week’s prompt of looking back on 2018 goals. I was also sad to learn that this linkup is wrapping up as there have been some really fun prompts in the ~six-nine months I’ve been reading it. When I saw that I was doubly glad I managed to get this one done.

Linking up with: Erika at MCM Mama, Marcia at Marcia’s Healthy Slice, and Patty at No Guilt Life.

My 2018 goals were all over the place and one goal as I lay out 2019 I know I need to simplify. For the purposes of this post, I’m looking at them through the lens of the medal races. This is in date order for simplicity, but there is no ranking of these medals – I’m proud of every single one.

Medals, bibs, books and coffee

January: Fred Lebow Manhattan Half Marathon

Engraved medal

Actually, I lie. This will probably always be my favorite medal. It isn’t the most photogenic, or my first. But it represented so much. It made me a HALF MARATHONER! The race it represented wasn’t even explicitly mentioned in my goals because I was so afraid of failure even though my blogging audience at that point was myself and Liz. I know why I didn’t make it Facebook official until after the race and didn’t even tell my closest friends & family until morning of, but not sure why I was so blog shy. I’m doing this race again in about a month and am cautiously excited. I want to enjoy it without the stress of OMG, First Half, but I know I’m once again undertrained.

February: A1A Fort Lauderdale Half Marathon

I <3 this medal. Has now joined the others

Funny, I went to take a photo of this medal before realizing I had all of these in my blog posts and I did not have the same reaction as I do in the caption, which copied over from my race recap. One of the reasons the A1A (Half) Marathon is so popular is the medals, and I find them just meh. It doesn’t excite me.

The race was fun, and like Lebow I’m repeating it in 2019. How can you dislike running along the oceanfront for sunrise? I actually had a worse time than I did in Lebow because Florida humidity led to a lot of walking. I don’t have a set goal for this one yet beyond avoiding gel-induced nausea.

April: CUCB Cherry Blossom 10M

Cheese ball! So glad for the heat wrap

This was interesting. The medal and tech shirt were ala carte purchases and the medal further had an option to have a strip sent with your time. I did that, but would probably skip that in the future as the excitement of it wore off by the time it came. This race was fun, beautiful and one I’ll probably do again but not in 2019 as I’m spending race funds on some other races/destinations and DC is expensive during Cherry Blossom season.

In some ways, I see this Expo moment as an unofficial medal for the weekend

Book plate! “Believe and achieve!”

 

There’s a reason I tucked this into the front of my bib holder. That used to be chronological, but Lebow went to the front and I can’t see much of anything ever going in front of that bib. Although I didn’t love her book as much as I thought I might, listening to her speak at the Expo and later at an NYRR event and while waiting to have my Brooklyn Half medal engraved is really inspiring. And this quote, so true! I believed I could run a Half and I did. Three times.

May: Brooklyn Half

medal back and front

Oh this race. Cold, wet, fun! A major PR. Another oceanfront finish although race day was far from a beach day. Popular is an appropriate sponsor given how quickly this Half sells out. Although I’m not sure about running it again in 2019 due to schedule, I’ll definitely do it again in the future. It’s one of the NYC ones I highly recommend as it’s a nice course, good time of the year.

June: Women’s Mini 10K, Queens 10K

Grandma always asked, “What, do you want a medal?” “Yes. Yes I do”
I didn’t love the race, but I love the medal

Two races I did not love, even though I know without a doubt I’ll do the Women’s Mini again in 2019. Queens was colored by the fact that I was getting sick, but I really struggled during the Mini. There is something about the 10K race distance even though it’s a distance I enjoy running in training. I do love the Queens 10K medal and really all of the Four of Six ones celebrate wonderful elements of NYC/NYRR. I really think a goal for the 2019 Mini is to run the course in that direction in practice to handle the disorientation element of it.

September: Bronx 10M

Best finish ever
4/6 Five Borough Series

Since I didn’t do the Staten Island Half, September/Bronx 10 M marked my completion of the 4/6 race series. I look forward to adding to this collection with the 2019 NYC Half medal as these medals earned me that entry. I’ve talked about the Bronx 10 in depth. In hindsight I don’t know that I’ve softened enough to want to repeat this race, but I think time may heal pride wounds.

On Goals

So I didn’t hit my A goal of 780 and won’t hit my B goal of 700, but pleased with my running goals. I’m still way ahead of my 2017 totals and have grown as a runner.

I really liked something Kara Goucher said on Morning Shakeout about not letting go of goals, but not letting goals define happiness. It is so true. Stopping worrying about minutiae made me a lot happier and I’d say I met my goals, even if I didn’t, If that makes sense. I’m a better runner than I was a year ago, even if I still haven’t run a sub 30 5K.

In Closing

2018 has been a hell of a year. I’m really proud of myself and the runner I have become. I look forward to seeing what 2019 brings.

Enjoy the Journey

I have been… and I will.

TOTR: Fall Running Plans

I love Tuesdays on the Run. And I love having the “cheat sheet” of the topics early so I can get these written at the weekend. This week? Fall Running Plans.

Linking up with: Erika at MCM Mama, Marcia at Marcia’s Healthy Slice, and Patty at No Guilt Life.

I don’t have any fall running favorites, other than the weather. I cannot wait for more seasonable temperatures. I did two races last year, and will be repeating one. More on that later. Non-running favorites? The leaves. One thing I really missed about the northeast when living in Japan and Australia was the four seasons, especially fall. It’s just magical. The colors, the smell. I enjoy getting silly for my birthday/Thanksgiving but that’s secondary to the colors.

My fall running plans are:

The maybes are schedule questions, but I’d really like to run Grete’s Great Gallop even though I hate the Central Park 10K course and have been hill-avoidant all summer. It sounds like a wonderful race and a way to honor a great woman. I did the Poland Spring kickoff last year and aside from hating the shirt (still do, still an issue with women’s shirts), I loved the race. I’ll probably end up doing this again if I’m in town.

For the confirmed races:

  • I have mixed feelings about the Bronx 10 miler. Training hasn’t been what I wanted it to, but I think I can run ten miles. It starts at Yankee Stadium! I like the idea of running down the Concourse as its architecture is stunning,  but I’m not sure I’ll feel the same on the loop back. I’m thinking of running with a pacer, but we’ll see.
  • I was bummed to get closed out of Race to Deliver last year and signed up as quickly as I could. Something about giving back Thanksgiving week, and especially around my birthday. Speaking of Thanksgiving, hoping to do a Turkey Trot somewhere that weekend.
  • Ted Corbitt was my first long race and it still has a special place in my heart. I loved it, even with a sore hip and even in the snow. I need to get it together with hills this fall, but a variation of this course has become my 15K loop when I go long in Central Park. I want to beat last year, but beyond that don’t have specific goals this far out.

On the not running front:

  • the one I’m not repeating from last fall is the Squirrel Stampede which has been cancelled in favor of rescheduling the August rain out. I was looking forward to running Roosevelt Island again, but it’s the same weekend as the Bronx so I wouldn’t have been able to either way
  • I was tossing up the South Nyack 10 miler as I remember going to it as a kid, but after my fall I realized what a challenge the course was and that I probably wasn’t ready. It didn’t hurt that I got Giants’ tickets for that day either. So next year, maybe.